I am not a solid planet for you.
I can change as quickly as the clouds do
I morph like oceans, never the same twice
And so you see my love cannot suffice
Within a world that worships swords in stones.
I've never found my place in all these homes,
I do not think I'll find it in your heart.
A perfect life for me, too late to start
And all the ghosts that haunt me have no end
This body of mine considered no friend
Amongst the bones in closets full of strife
That plague my mind every day of my life.
The infinite pleasure outside my grasp —
Although they say it's not too late to ask,
I don't think I can handle more silence
Or tolerate one more false alliance.
Alone I'll be in crowds of endless space
Forever floating in a sea of grace
I've granted myself without permission,
Bypassing Godlike sinful cosmic lesson.
I'm vapor water ice within one soul
Intrusive thoughts that I cannot control
Electrify a brain more dark than yours
But I cannot endure anymore cures
Because my light is not meant for this world,
And I cannot give up all of my pearls
To be the ground upon which all your dreams
Erect a world I'm ripped apart at seams.
So please remember all I've said and done,
You celebrate my death because you won
Yet you will die with my thoughts in your head
And hear my echoes from beyond the dead
For years to come because I loved you so.
And parts of me that you will never know
Will roam the skies and seas in ships unladen
Forever free from that great iron maiden.
The reaper's jaws of life will strike again,
And I will sit here quietly till then.