The following is a (psychic) conversation I had with my Inner Child recently where I learned something rather valuable about myself:
Adult Me: “Inner Child, what do you need? What’s wrong? Why are you still sad? I have all these gifts for you now that you didn’t have then. Why aren’t you enjoying them?”
Inner Child: “I am glad to have them, but you don’t spend time with me! You just keep me busy but you don’t want to BE with me. You used to want to do everything, but now that we can do everything, you’re tired of it all & don’t want to do anything. It’s frustrating.”
Adult Me: “I know it is frustrating, & I am sorry. I will figure out how to do better.”
Inner Child: “You used to feel so happy just to be alive, and you’re not now. I feel so trapped.”
Adult Me: “Me too.
Inner Child: “I want to play, I want to make friends and enjoy the endless potential of the good things of the world. Remember when we felt that way? Then life happened. Is life a bad place to be in?”
Adult Me: “I’m not sure, I haven’t decided yet. It sure feels like it sometimes. But then other times it all feels worth it. I don’t have things figured out any better than you do, I’m afraid.”
Inner Child: “I just want us to enjoy being alive again. Even though nothing was ever perfect in our life, I wish we could go back to feeling vibrant and excited about the future. I wish we could go back to wanting to make more friends rather than hide away from everybody all the time.”
Adult Me: “…Me too. I’m working on it. When I have it figured out, I’ll let you know.”
Inner Child: “But can you just enjoy spending time with me again? That’s the most important thing to me. I want us to be together again. Please just walk through life with me without worrying so much. You don’t have any children, but I still exist inside you. Please don’t forget about me like so many others did.”
Adult Me: “I’m sorry I ever failed you, little one. I promise you I am here now.”
