Weekly Submission: March 12th-19th 2023

It's Friday, but I'm no longer in love.

The Breakup occurred about a week ago on the Ides Of March.

He left a large hole that he filled within me (and Im not talking about my vagina).

In a nutshell, I no longer fit into his financial vision, and therefore I can no longer fit into his life.

His work was getting the best of him and I was not, and the moment I pointed this out everything changed.

He said, "our values don't align like I thought they did" and dumped me like a hot potato.

What he already had, wasn't enough for him... but it was enough for me.

I told him our relationship was still alive and worth fighting for. He told me that our relationship was dead and cut it off at the root.

I am reeling. I feel so, so sad, so upset, so shocked.

I just can't believe this is happening.

I can't believe our entire yearlong relationship decayed over the course of a few hours.

It's been radio silence between us for days.

It wasn't supposed to end up like this.

The future is feeling very bleak despite being full of potential.

There is no one for me to love now. It's just me and Medusa.

"Daddy's not coming home" I tell her whenever she perks up thinking he's pulled into the driveway.

And it's true. He's not coming home to us, ever again.

I have no idea what life is like for him now, but for me life feels empty, melancholy, and anxious.

Was our relationship just fake, since it could be thrown away so easily?

He's not the same man I confessed my feelings to back in November 2021.

The old him would spend time with me (and Medusa) and not feel guilty about it as if he should have been working instead of enjoying us in the moment.

I miss the old him so, so much. I never would have thought he would one day end up breaking my heart... but shit happens.

I feel so sad.